Day #40: Things Are Heating Up

There's a lot of drama happening around the Juneau division these days and I'm trying to avoid it like the plague. The "simple" task of trying to remain under the radar can be exhausting, especially when you're trying to find the perfect balance between not screwing up and making it known that you're good at your job. I won't go into any detail, for one because it stresses me out to think about it, but also because it doesn't do any good to bitch and moan about something that probably won't change, though I will say this: I feel like I need to walk on eggshells for a couple of weeks. I'm terrified of screwing up.

So needless to say, today was something else. Talk about mood swings on my end. Woke up feeling exhausted; had some coffee, felt great; lost my name tag, which I hate because I feel like my guests need to know my name; had a rough start to my day (I think I may have gotten off on the wrong foot with my guests); worked longer than expected (I am grateful for the hours, I just wish I could have eaten!!); and then of course had problems parking my bus and doing my post-trip stuff because of fatigue. Now I must say that I am quite proud of myself for keeping a smile and a positive attitude throughout the day, especially with the storm howling all around me. I am now fed, about to go to bed, sleep in and have breakfast with a friend (I work a half day tomorrow), so I am happy.

(I do need to add one more note, for myself, so that I can remember a moment I had with a very nice couple from Oklahoma yesterday. I got to the docks and it was raining and cold, now I was shivering and welcoming some tourists to Juneau when this couple sitting on a bench called out asking if I was cold. When I replied yes, they scooted away from each other about 8 inches and motioned for me to sit in between them. I sad down, and they squeezed together and put their arms around me, rubbing my arms and trying to warm them up. All the while, they chatted with me about how wonderful Alaska is and how sweet I seemed to be. I was disappointed when they weren't on my tour, but later on in the day I got added to a duty in which I got to see them again!! They were so excited to see me that they sat in the front seat and enthusiastically answered my trivia questions on their return to the ship. God really shined through this couple - as they left, gave me hugs, and said sincerely "God bless you, Kristin," I told them I'd never forget them and meant it.)